Lord please hear my cry
My plea for sanity
The pain I have I can no longer bear
I need your help, do you still care
I’m trying to give you my all
but each step I make
I only seem to fallLord Please hear my cry
My heart is telling me its time to let it all go
Please remove this sadness that has overcome me
Show me the light that leads to you
I can no longer deny my loneliness. It consumes from within, it clinches my heart at times in effort to remind me its not a friend. As if I can somehow forget the emptiness I am in. My mind fights for freedom but the battle is never won. Its like I am in the middle of a war and fight with no gun. I see life through a window thats dirty and worn. As sunny skies pass me by my heart becomes torn. I once thought this feeling was a temporary affair. But each day it grows stronger and my heart bears another tear. I know misery loves company and its getting crowded inside, for this is the reason why my lonliness I can no longer hide.
Can I reach beyond reality
Grab a hold of my dreams
Capture my inner self
Keep my sanity
Out grow my fear
Can I see my life ahead
Skip over the present
Do I know who I am
Can I believe
For words not spoken
Are always revealed
Not knowing the next step
Is it the end of the life I lived
My desire to stay strong sometimes escapes me It leaves my like the trees in an Autumn breeze
My mind wanders and my focus fades
I awaken from my dreams but my journey is still ahead
My life is full but my passion remains unfed
I reach out my hand to feel my way through this dark room
Then I realize I’m just in the bathroom….
This shit is crazy why do I put up with this? Why do I continue to allow myself to be apart of this mess? I don’t know what to do. Why do I love her so much. Here I sit alone dying for her touch. It’s a struggle everyday trying to get through. Its like she doesn’t even care its like I’m just a fool. Why do fools fall in love a question asked plenty of times. I haven’t heard the answer if I had I it must have slipped my mind. I don’t know how much longer of this I can take. Maybe its time for me to call it quits or just take a break. I wish sometimes that I didn’t love maybe I wouldn’t be here trying to appear tough. I stuck in this empty room nothing but darkness and silence which im consumed. I try to escape this horrid place but scars on my heart are too deep to erase. I once thought this was meant to be. I think im mistaken cause this just cant be. So I will continue to look for solutions to this pain unless all this confusion doesn’t drive me insane.
