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My desire to stay strong sometimes escapes me It leaves my like the trees in an Autumn breeze

My mind wanders and my focus fades

I awaken from my dreams but my journey is still ahead

My life is full but my passion remains unfed

I reach out my hand to feel my way through this dark room

Then I realize I’m just in the bathroom….

This shit is crazy why do I put up with this? Why do I continue to allow myself to be apart of this mess? I don’t know what to do. Why do I love her so much. Here I sit alone dying for her touch. It’s a struggle everyday trying to get through. Its like she doesn’t even care its like I’m just a fool. Why do fools fall in love a question asked plenty of times. I haven’t heard the answer if I had I it must have slipped my mind. I don’t know how much longer of this I can take. Maybe its time for me to call it quits or just take a break. I wish sometimes that I didn’t love maybe I wouldn’t be here trying to appear tough. I stuck in this empty room nothing but darkness and silence which im consumed. I try to escape this horrid place but scars on my heart are too deep to erase. I once thought this was meant to be. I think im mistaken cause this just cant be. So I will continue to look for solutions to this pain unless all this confusion doesn’t drive me insane.

They say misery loves company, but who does company love? Could it be loneliness because whenever I am lonely it is always with me? I sit on my bed and think of my life as it unfolds in front of me. My joy my pain the sunshine the rain, is it all in vain. Do the stars in the sky really know I exist? Does the sun shine for me or is it a myth. The grass is greener on the other side, however I will never know. My heart, my mind, my soul is enwrapped in this dark hole. I look around to see what becomes of me. My eyes must be blind because it only sees lonely. My heart feels the love ever so close but darkness overtakes and begins to erase. My soul yearns for more and will not give up without a fight but it is too weak, as the day becomes the night. Who can save me from this abyss of loneliness only one heart one mind one soul has the power to defeat this. Where is such power that is stronger than me within? Where is this hope that will give me the strength to win? Where is the love I so desperately need in my life where is the dream that I want to come to life. Loneliness a disease, a plague, that starts with one. Is there a way out when you are the only ONE?

Confusion and stress
Undeveloped dreams
Fading happiness
Trying to reach out and capture my destiny
Clouds block my view making it impossible to see
Looking back trying to recognize
Unaware of the future
Unaware of the past
So much pain
With no means of escape
Where is the happiness
Please come before its too late
Can’t seem to comprehend
Cant seem to withstand
All the walls that enter my path……

As the sunset, I looked into your eyes. I never saw such beauty, such loveliness. Your lips so full so sensual. My desire to hold you close and taste your sensuality quickly over took my heart. I gracefully grabbed you and pulled you into my arms. I felt your warmth radiate all over me. Was it passion was it desire? Was it love? I softly kissed your lips now engrossed by my own cupidity. Love, like a flower in a breeze blowing free. I was on a cloud. I closed my eyes and envisioned that moment over and over.Our time apart had seemed like an eternity although it was only about a day. I knew in my heart there could be no greater love here on earth. Your hair blew in the wind revealing your exquisite face. I look at you and smiled. You were wearing a black fitting shirt and some well-fit jeans. They seem to accent you so well. It seems as if anything you would wear would have the same affect. Your beauty was none like on this earth. My infatuation had long expired. This was love at its finest hour. This was desire.

I asked, “How are you”? You replied, “I’m ok”. Small talk something I was never good at. My words flowed from my heart and mind onto paper. I looked you over once again in attempt to take all your beauty at once. However, I failed once again your elegance was too great. We talked about our day and how uneventful both of our days had been. I reached over and whispered in your ear “I LOVE YOU”. You looked at me tilted your head and said, “I love you too”. You always tilted your head when you love over came you. It was so inviting. We continue on talking for about another thirty minutes. Somehow, we always end up kissing and caressing each other.

I held you close to my body and kissed you so gently. I again found myself in that place I had envisioned. As our tongues danced, we held each other tighter and tighter. I felt your heart beat faster. I begin to kiss your neck right below your ear. You smelled so sweet. As I kissed down your neck, I caressed your back. I started kissing your shoulder a spot I know you would respond to. I wanted you so bad. It had been so long since I felt your body next to mine. I wanted to taste touch and feel all of you. When we make love, it was as if we were in a completely new world. At that moment when I kissed your shoulder, you squeezed my body. I knew then you got my hint. We then stopped kissing and gazed into each other’s eyes, thinking of the things we wanted to do.

You excuse your self to the bathroom. I sit down on the bed and wait for you return. As you came out of the bathroom, you were totally naked. I was in aw. I had seen you naked plenty of times but this time you seemed ever more beautiful than before. I pick you up in my arms and carry to the bed. I kiss you passionately as I lay you down. I start kissing your body all over not missing a spot. Today is the day you feel all my love. I start to suck and lick on your nipples. I then work down to your stomach while massaging your breast with my hands. I work my way down to your inner thighs. I light brush my tongue against them. I tease your clit by lightly touching it with the tip of my tongue. You move your waist closer to my face in attempt to get me to taste you. However, I am not ready to give you that yet. I begin kiss down your leg to your knee then to your feet. I begin sucking on your toes. I suck each individual toe while caressing your legs. I ask you if you like it. However, the expression on your face tells me you do. I then begin to work back up. Kiss you all over not missing a spot. I get to your clit and begin to lick it very lightly your body once again wants more. I lift your legs up and expose your pussy. I then take my tongue and enter inside of you. I work my tongue in and out of you tasting your wet juices. I love the taste and smell of your pussy. With your legs up, I bury my face inside your pussy making love to you with my tongue. I then begin sucking on your clit, tasting your love. I lick your clit hearing you moan. I then come back up and kiss you and whisper in your ear “is this what you want”? I work my way back down sucking on your nipples on my journey back. I then start back on your clit. I massage you inside with my finger as I lick your clit. I continue licking and massaging you. I feel your body tense up. I know you are ready to explode. I begin to lick you faster and harder. As you get closer and closer to exploding, you grab my head and push it into your pussy. I feel you lift your but as you begin to explode! I hear you call out my name as I continue sucking your clit until you beg me to stop.

You look into my eyes in amazement of how you feel. You begin to undress me. You feel payback is in order. As you take off my clothes, you kiss me. I feel the passion you are about to unleash. You push me down on the bed and begin to kiss me. You sucking and bite on my nipples making my already hard dick harder. You kiss on my stomach then down to the base of my dick. I feel your mouth’s warmth around my dick. Then you slowly lick my dick from bottom to top. Then you begin to suck on it. It feels so good. You suck and lick on it making me want you even more. You then sit on me. As I enter you, the feeling is like no other. Your warmth and wetness makes me shiver. You move up and down on me slowly. You begin to move faster and faster. The feeling is wonderful. I pull you to me and kiss you as you continue to make love to me. I then pick you up and lay you down. I show you my love again. I enter you and slowly go in and out. Making you feel every inch of me. I begin to move faster as I hear you say, “Fuck me baby!” I put your legs on my shoulders and begin to go in and out. You begin to squeeze me indicating you want more of me. I go faster and faster and as deep as I can go. I then tell you to lie on your side and start entering you. I see you smile and I continue to go in and out. It feels so good I do not want the feeling to ever end. I look into your eyes and tell you I love you so much. I then go faster making you feel ever inch of me. Making you remember every stroke. I want you to remember every second of our lovemaking. I turn you over and feel you from behind. I go in and out once again making you feel all of me. I hear your sounds of pleasure with every stroke. I feel myself getting closer to my climax. I begin to move faster and harder. As I explode with passion, I call out your name as I collapse on the bed and you lay next to me. I hold your sexy body next to mine. I whisper in your ear “I love you.” As we lay in each other,’s arms and fall asleep together.

Love comes at times unknown. However, what we must do with the love is make it our own. Hold on to our dreams and wishes for one day they may come true. Make everyday as passionate and live life as lovers do. I want to show you each and everyday that this is where I want my heart to always stay. Until the end of time, I will be here with you forever in love forever with you….