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I can say that as a man admitting that I have fear was hard not only verbally but in my mind. I avoided it so much I truly believed I wasn’t afraid. Afraid of what? Life! Life itself had me terrified. Not to the point that I didn’t want to go outside and face the world. However in my mind facing the world was a tough battle. I battled with myself for years and still today there is some conflict. So why was I afraid of life? I guess it was the fear of failure. Maybe it was the fear of not being good enough. Or the fear of how I was seen. I tried to not think about things so deeply and just go with the flow but something inside of me never let my mind settle. I know some may think I shouldn’t worry. I wish my mind worked that way. Well the next question would be, how did fear control my life. Well the start I wouldn’t take chances and not taking chances made me miss out on a lot of opportunities. I know now when I look back I see the choices I made to not do something was out fear. The choices I made weren’t always in the best interest of my life. I now take more chances and live with less fear. I can’t say my fear is totally gone but I have learned over the years how to suppress it. This allowed me to explore more and find greater rewards in finance, love, happiness, and just life in general. I once was controlled by fear of the unknown now the only fear I have is the known.