StylisM

My life has been up and down like most. I know it was never the end of the world when things were bad but why did I suffer so much pain from so little. Was I weak was I oversensitive? I still have yet to figure it out. I use to think MAYBE I AM NOBODY. Not in the sense of everyday life but in the sense of someone who is special to this world. I never really had truly bad times in my life that others would see as tragic but in my mind my falls were like being pushed from an airplane without a parachute. I think after things in my life started going wrong, and the climb up didn’t result in enlightenment to my life. I began to think what I thought all those years when I was younger, was just an escape from myself, the escape from being nobody. I had a desire to be SOMETHING GREAT, but I was nothing more than an average person with over zealous dreams. Why would a nobody dream so big so passionately, if those dreams would never come true? How could I have gained this mindset and desire to be something great but not possess any greatness within? I questioned my self over and over again throughout my life. While still holding on to one piece of my dream to be SOMETHING.